"It's better to be hated for who you are than be loved for who you're not."
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Thursday, November 8, 2007 2:24 AM
The part no one knows about. The one that's in my heart.
It was more than a year ago that we met. I remember i gave you my number but you only contacted me six months later. It's really strange that you suddenly appeared in my life. Even til now, i still wonder why.
I didn't mean to let it get personal. I mean what we had. And i'm positively sure you were playing too. But really, what happened? In the first place, did you even feel that way? Or what back then, you'd say you 'love' me ? I know i did fall for you.
I don't know if you remember little things you used to say. I don't know if you can remember the times we had shared. I remember we were supposed to go to Tioman in September. It's really okay if you can't recall these things. You can't even remember when's my birthday.
I still feel the same if you ask. Even that period we started to drift apart. And the day you finally 'ended' things off, it didn't surprise me at all. I was expecting it.
I know we had this converstion many times but one of the reasons i chose to let you go because i see no point of prolonging what was left. We both know you've moved on. And why i think being friends was never a good idea because we were never friends in the first place. I also can't stand the fact you're having fun and i'm still hurting. You may not understand. But afterall i'm a girl.
But look, i'm not asking you to not be in my life either. I do think about you every now and then. I still need you i think. And i want you to know i really miss you. It was good to hear your voice.
We'll see how. =)